We have always walked.
We spent three years of our lives walking campus together. You walking me to class. Me walking to meet you after class. Us walking to an event. You walking me to my place to collect my things. Us walking back to yours.
Walking the entire campus arguing.
Walking to avoid.
Walking to prove.
Walking to fix.
Walking to stay.
Walking is where we cultivated us.
When I looked in the mirror I did not recognize the woman staring back at me. I looked to my left and even you appeared to be an intruder. Another version of yourself. It was me but it wasn’t me. It was you but it wasn’t you. We changed. I was terrified by what we had authorized fear to do to our hearts. Who approved his move in? When did we allow the devil into our home? He is a devious devil. A barbaric beast. He crept in at a fragile state. He used you. He used me.
In the midst of our development we neglected us. I had forgotten that I deserve you. I allowed fear to determine my attitude towards you. Work…school…family…life…you. My priorities were completely out of order. If I wasn’t even on the list how could we be on the list? This is what happens when you stop paying attention to the pulse. Pulse checks are absolutely crucial. Pulse checks protect against this.
I missed you. Why did I stop seeing you?
Thank you for returning to me.
You are my dreaming partner. May we forever live in this space. May our vibes remain forever connected as we move through the inevitable changes of our lives.
I love you.